31 Weeks | Baby Raisin




And a look back from when I first started showing!  Wow, a lot has changed!



How big is baby: 18 inches, about 3 and a third pounds, the size of a coconut! I just can’t believe she is so close to how long she will be when she is born. She will be full-term in just 6 weeks! That blows my mind.

Weight gain/loss: I should just take the “loss” part out of this section. I don’t intend to (nor do I want to) lose any weight at this point. Celia is growing like a weed (about ½ a pound a week now until the end), so losing weight would probably not be a good thing. At my latest appointment yesterday, I had gained 25 pounds, which is perfectly normal and healthy for my size and my pre-pregnancy weight. I’m feeling really good about it. They recommend up to 35 pounds, and I have anywhere from 6-11ish weeks to go since I really want to respect my body and my baby in terms of when she is ready to be delivered, so I think I can make it that long only gaining 10 more pounds. However, if I gain more than that, I’m okay with that, too.

Sleep: Oh man, sleep is pretty laughable at this point. It has gotten pretty bad. If I am able to “sleep in,” until about 6-8am, I normally am up for two hours in the night unable to fall back asleep. Most days, when I work, I start at 6am and the drive is 35+ minutes (depending on weather), so I’m usually up by 4:20. Those nights, I often have a hard time falling asleep, so I’ll get about 5 hours of sleep. I guess I’m just getting ready for life with a newborn. I’m going to try hard to make myself nap, but life is so insanely busy right now that I don’t always have that option.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: As I mentioned last week, I’ve been having some very weird smell-cravings, which I brought up to the midwife I met with yesterday. It’s likely that it’s due to anemia, so I’m going to start taking some iron supplements and trying to add iron into my diet. It’s really, really bad some days. I’ve learned that really bland cereal (like Kix or Rice Chex) help to fulfill the craving temporarily. Very strange!

Aversions: Not really much of anything at this point. I’m not even sure if chicken is an aversion anymore since I’ve stayed away from it for so many months that I don’t really think about it anymore.

Movement: Still very strong! Yesterday, on the way to my appointment, I was pretty sure she had finally flipped (at least for the day) and was head down. I felt very strong kicks up by my ribs and one of her feet stayed nestled against the right side of my rib cage pretty much all day. Sure enough, during my appointment, her head was down and her feet were right where I thought they were. I also had a Braxton Hick contraction while the midwife was feeling my belly, so I now know that I was right about what I was experiencing!

What I’m loving: I’m just loving feeling little Celia move and imagining her. Life is pretty hard and stressful right now, so I’m doing everything I can to focus on the miracle growing inside of me to keep things in perspective.

Symptoms: Nothing new.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to celebrate San’s birthday this weekend! Money is very tight for us right now, but I’m just so happy to get to indulge a little and celebrate my best friend! He works so hard to provide for us (often working 12-15 hour days, running on just a few hours of sleep). It makes me so worried about him, but also so grateful to have a husband who provides for us and is so giving. I’m super lucky to have him as my husband and Celia is truly beyond blessed to have an amazing dad like San.

What I’m nervous about: I’m going to be honest here, life is very hard for me right now. Personally, a lot has happened that during any time of my life would affect me greatly, but being pregnant with all these huge changes on top of it becomes overwhelming quite often. We are waiting on our house to sell and need the money now for a lot of things (maternity leave, a new home, etc.) since we had a lot of random things come up that were extremely expensive after we moved (many car repairs, house setbacks, etc.). I’m working toward a goal of a way to provide more for our family without working more, which I will share more about eventually, but it’s taken up a ton of my time because I’m trying to get things in order for it before Celia arrives. I love my parents very much and am so grateful to be living with them, but that change has been difficult as well for all of us. It’s not easy living on my own for the greater part of the last seven years and now moving back in with two extra dogs of our own in addition to their dog, different schedules, stuff in storage, different routines, splitting expenses, etc. I feel so grateful for what all these changes will hopefully mean for us and for the goals we have, but it has been overwhelming quite often lately. There are just so many unknowns surrounding our house. I really don’t know what we will do if we don’t get a buyer soon, but I trust God that we will get through somehow. I think the hardest part is that I wanted to do everything “right” during this pregnancy, but all of these changes have led to me pretty much having to give up control in most areas of my life, so I’m just trying to stay sane and stay alive and do the best I can when I can. My diet has not been nearly what I would like it to be, my stress level is far from where I had hoped it would be, I wanted to be so prepared and now we are left with still so much to buy for our baby and being temporarily unable to do so. I have felt like a bad mom quite often, but I have to remind myself that I’m doing the best I can. It’s hard, but I know we will get through.

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30 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: She is currently a little over 17 inches long and weighs a little over three pounds. She is the size of a butternut squash!!  Holy smokes!  She’s getting so big!

Weight gain/loss: I was so happy checking the scale today that even after our deliciously huge Thanksgiving meal yesterday, I’m only up 23 pounds!  I know I’ve said that I just want a healthy baby and that I’ll get as big as I get, but no woman wants to see the scale go up to huge numbers especially when the end is when I will probably gain the most.  If I gain a pound a week like everything I have read suggests a pregnant woman should/will toward the end, I will still be in what the doctors have considered a healthy range for my size.  We’ll see what happens after Christmas rolls around now that I’m living with my parents and my mom makes some amazing Christmas cookies!

Sleep: It’s gotten pretty bad lately.  I wake up for about 2 hours in the night and can’t sleep.  If we have time to sleep in, I will normally fall back asleep, but often that is not an option, so I go without.  I guess this will be what sleep is like when Celia arrives.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Pretty much nothing food-wise.  I haven’t admitted this to many people, but I’ve had some really strange smell-cravings as I like to call them.  The things I am “craving” I don’t want to actually eat, but I LOVE the smell and I crave the smell of them.  These things include: gas, sheetrock (like the smell of Menards – I LOVE that smell), and paper.  It’s very weird, but it’s gotten pretty intense some days!  I definitely won’t be sniffing any gas, but I must say that I kind of like filling up my gas tank in the frigid cold, even though I do everything I can to not breathe in too many vapors.  I have read that this is pretty common, but it makes me feel very weird!

Aversions: Still chicken, but it’s not overwhelming.

Movement: She’s a dancing machine!  Lately, she’s been sticking limbs out so that we can feel her little arm or leg trying to poke through my uterus.  It’s so cool to feel how big she is!

What I’m loving: I’m loving that we are now in the 30’s week-wise, so we are getting close!  I’m also loving that our house is finally on the market.

Symptoms: My feet have been getting pretty tingly when I sit too long, probably from a lack of adequate blood flow to my extremities. It’s very, very uncomfortable, but it normally goes away from walking around a little bit.  Acid reflux is not my friend and it has gotten really bad a couple times this week.  I love this little girl so much and am just SO ready to have her on the outside (although mentally I don’t think I’m ready for the birth yet).

What I’m excited about: Less stress of finishing the house now that it is on the market, cozying up more during this holiday season, trying to just focus on going slow and resting.  It’s not easy since there still is so much to do, but I’m trying!

What I’m nervous about: There are many worries on my mind, but I’ve been doing my best to give them to God and to just have a breakdown if I need one.  Crying really does help sometimes.  The house not selling or not selling for about what we want it to would mean some not so happy things for us, but I’m trying to just not worry about it because it is out of our control.  I’m worried that we don’t have all the stuff we want/need for when Celia arrives and money is tight right now, so we will just have to see what happens.  This whole process definitely hasn’t gone like I thought it would, but I’ve learned so much throughout all this and am just hoping and praying we make it through with a beautiful healthy baby girl at the end of it all.

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Our Little Cottage in the City: The Final Home Tour

The day has come, my friends, to show you our final home tour on our little cottage in the city.  It is definitely bittersweet to share this post and video with you, since so much love and hard work has been poured into this home.  We were definitely never intending to sell it only a year and a half after we purchased it (if we had known, we never would have bought it in the first place), but opportunities much too grand to let pass by came up that we just had to jump on for the future of our growing family.

I explain in the video a lot of what we did as well as why we finished the basement right before selling, so watch that if you would like more detail.

Sit back, relax, and enjoy the video with before photos, an emotional update, and a full home tour of the house at the time of selling.

Upstairs Floor Plan Before and After

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Entryway/Living Room















Dining Room
















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Back Bedroom Upstairs




Front “Master” Bedroom Upstairs





Stairway Down to Basement Family Room




Basement Floor Plan Before and After

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Basement Family Room




Basement Full Bathroom






Utilities/Storage Room





Back Basement Bedroom




Front Basement Bedroom






I hope you enjoyed the final home tour!  We are very sad to leave this home, especially now that it is almost exactly how I envisioned it would be for us over time as our family grew, but it is just a house and now someone else can enjoy it.  We would greatly appreciate prayers for a quick sale close to asking price so we can move on to a new home hopefully before little Celia arrives.

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29 Weeks | Baby Raisin

How big is baby: She is currently about 17 inches long and weighs about 2.9 pounds. She is the size of a small cabbage!

Weight gain/loss: Haven’t checked!

Sleep: Really hit or miss.  It is getting very hard to get comfortable and stay comfortable throughout the night, though.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Pretty much nothing.

Aversions: Still chicken, but it’s not overwhelming.

Movement: Her movements are getting even stronger and are even more visible on the outside now!  I don’t think I will ever get sick of feeling her move around in there.  I’ve been trying to figure out what body parts I am feeling when I press on my belly, but I am really bad at figuring it out!

What I’m loving: This is going to be really lame, but lately I’ve been so uncomfortable in my own pajamas!  I normally wear pajama pants of some sort and a t-shirt from a concert, high school, etc. which are all size small.  They still technically “fit,” but they are all just so uncomfortable to me.  I love wearing loose clothing around the house, and nothing I own fits loosely anymore!  So, in desperation, I pulled out a pair of San’s pajama pants he never wears, one of his t-shirts, and a sweatshirt and I was in comfort heaven!  I’m sure I looked ridiculous but I felt so good!  Luckily he’s not too much bigger than me so I wasn’t drowning in the clothes, but since men’s clothes are already usually looser and he is bigger than me, it was the perfect solution!  I don’t plan on going back to my own lounge clothes until Celia is in my arms!

Symptoms: I tend to forget my symptoms when I go to write these posts, so I wrote them down this time!  I have been having daily heartburn, which is not something I’ve ever suffered from, thankfully.  It is no fun!  I haven’t found a trend of when it happens, what I ate, how much I ate, etc., so I’m just riding it out and hoping it won’t get worse.  My belly button is also on the verge of being fully popped.  It’s been half-popped for a couple weeks (the top half kind of sticks out but the bottom half wasn’t there yet).  When I am sitting after a meal, it is usually sticking out, but it’s not fully popped all the time yet.

What I’m excited about: Our house is going on the market this week!!!!!  I have a whole week off next week!!!!  We are going house hunting this weekend!!!!  Need I say more?

What I’m nervous about: As excited as I am about our house going on the market, I’m very nervous it’s not going to sell for close to what we wanted.  We would never have finished the basement if we weren’t going to make a big chunk of money off of it (it’s been so hard on my parents and us to hold on to this home and work on it every spare second, and of course with that going on we’ve had more extra expenses than we’ve had all year with my tire popping, San needing new tires, San’s catalytic converter needing replacement, my front brakes grinding, etc.), so it will be pretty devastating if we don’t make a decent amount back on the sale of the house.  However, at the end of the day, I just want it gone at a decent price.

I’ve also started to get pretty nervous about the birth.  I’ve been doing a lot to prepare for it, love our Bradley classes, and am trying to stay positive, but I am HORRIBLE at mentally preparing for things I’ve never gone through before and at the end of the day, really know nothing about.  I could research every birth that has ever occurred, practice all kinds of techniques, do labor rehearsals, etc. and still be super nervous because I don’t know what my body is going to do, how Celia will be positioned, if the hospital will pressure me into things I don’t want to do, etc.  Part of me is just ready to rip the bandaid off because she is going to be so worth it and I just want to get through it!

Sidenote: I plan on taking a ton of photos of the finished house this week as well as film a final house tour video (sadface), but I just want to let anyone waiting for it know that I accidentally dropped my laptop this week and can’t get Photoshop to work (as well as various other programs – I haven’t tried our video editor yet), so there may be a longer wait time than I would like.

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28 Weeks | Baby Raisin



How big is baby: She is currently about 15 inches long and weighs about 2.5 pounds.  She is the size of a cucumber!

Weight gain/loss: I have gained about 22 pounds according to the doctor’s scale for my 28 week appointment this week.  Not horrible!  I have noticed my belly has not gotten significantly bigger this week as it had in week’s past, so maybe it will slow down a little bit!

Sleep: It really depends on the day!  I’m getting pretty uncomfortable, and lately Lucy has been sleeping in our bed in addition to Clementine, so it’s been a little cramped.  I’m the cuddler in their eyes (although San would love if they would cuddle him all night), so the dogs naturally lay right up against me, one on one side and one on the other, making it very cramped since my body is also sharing space with a little one.

I had the weirdest/best pregnancy dream so far!  I have been having painless braxton hicks contractions and that tied with our birthing class and getting anxious/nervous/excited about the birth coming up soon, has led to some interesting dreams!  The other night, I had a dream that it was summertime and I was giving birth in the deep end of the pool.  A midwife was there and I kept going underwater to push.  It wasn’t painful at all, but I looked down and everything was pretty much spread in half from the bust down.  The midwife yelled at me, “If you don’t start pushing now, your body will stay that way or stretch further!”  So, I pushed, apparently really hard, and the baby shot out feet away from me, floating happily through the water and the midwife had to swim pretty fast to catch him.  The funniest part?  He was a laughing, readheaded BOY!  So funny!  By far my favorite dream so far – it was just a painless, happy experience.  Definitely not completely accurate, especially since I’m about 99% positive we are not having a redhead or a boy.  Pretty awesome dream, though!

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Pretty much nothing.

Aversions: Still chicken, but it’s not overwhelming.

Movement: Still overall, very strong throughout the day.  I did have a scare on Sunday, however.  I woke up to my belly having a HUGE lump right under my bust and the rest of it was flat.  I mean, pre-pregnancy flat from my rib cage down to my pant line.  I immediately woke San up and had him feel.  It was so weird!  He said, “You need to do some pelvic rocks or something!!!” and was a little freaked out that our baby was shoved up into such a cramped position.  I did some pelvic rocks that our Bradley class teaches and it went back to normal.  Throughout the day, though, I kept feeling my belly getting really hard, which I just thought was our baby pushing up against the outside wall of my uterus.  I was very concerned because I had only felt a few dull kicks throughout the whole day (probably 3 total whereas normally I would feel dozens more very strong kicks).  I called the nurse line just to be sure, and they informed me that what I had been experiencing were braxton hicks contarctions (the balled up baby and the hard belly), and that I should do a kick count and see if I can get her to kick.  I had been working, so when I got home, I ate a big dinner with half a candy bar and a pumpkin bar from my baby shower this weekend.  Not healthy, but I wanted to pump her with some sugar to see if that would do anything.  Sure enough, as soon as I laid on my side, I felt ten kicks within minutes.  I’m thinking she wasn’t used to all the contractions that started that day, but she’s been back to being a kicking machine even with occasional braxton hicks since then.

What I’m loving: I had my baby shower this past weekend.  It was a lot of fun and I am just overwhelmed by all the generosity of family and friends!

What else am I loving?  Friends, our house is set to go on the market NEXT WEEK!  Do you have any idea how happy this makes me?  It’s crazy to me how much I loved that house but how much I just want it gone now!  I don’t want to be paying a mortgage on a house that it doesn’t make sense to own anymore!  I just would love a home of our own in our new city.  Don’t get me wrong, I loved our house, I loved the time spent there, and I greatly appreciate my parents for finishing the house and allowing us to live with them during the interim between houses.  However, there is nothing like having your own space, and I have never craved it more than now that I am pregnant.  I want to get Celia’s stuff all organized, purchase the last of the stuff we need, get settled, and get ready to spend a couple months cooped up in our new home cuddling and loving on our baby girl.  It is very hard to have the nesting bug hitting me hard (along with my normal organizational/decorating drive) with no outlet for it and no time.  I can’t wait to get back to blogging and posting videos regularly when we have our life back.  It’s been a chaotic time that I greatly appreciate, but I am ready for it to be over!

Symptoms: The only new one that I can think of is the occasional braxton hicks contraction.

What I’m excited about: See “what I’m loving”

What I’m nervous about: I’m a little nervous now that Minnesota now looks white instead of green/brown, which makes life much more difficult with driving, planning things, etc.  I’m trying to be extra cautious about how fast and where I walk since it can get pretty slick out there.

Here are some baby shower photos taken by my friend, Sarah of Sarah Sharene Photography:

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Playing the candy bar melted in the diaper game.

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Beautiful flowers and awesome prizes!

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There was a three-way tie during one game.  The tied ladies had to drink 4 ounces of punch out of a bottle.  It took forever but was hilarious.  I felt bad for them!

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Me with my amazing friends in attendance.

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Me with my mom and San’s family members in attendance.  Our little girl is going to probably be very little!  I’m only 5’3″ but I always feel tall around my in-laws! 

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27 Weeks | Baby Raisin


I finally gave in and got a maternity tank and I am so happy I did!  The small cami I was using from my pre-pregnancy days just looked pathetic on my nearly tripled-in-size belly.  Plus, I think this one shows off all the curves better and is MUCH more comfortable!  I’ve been wearing it under everything lately.  So long, stretchy, and soft!  I’m all about comfort these days.

And just for fun, when I first started showing to now, 14 weeks later.  I don’t mean to sound vain at all because I’m not one to compare my body to others, but I seriously can’t believe how small I used to be.  I think it took a twenty pound weight gain with a baby in my belly to realize that I should be happy with my body regardless of its size!  A woman’s body is amazing – I should be embracing it, not putting it down!  I told San that I can’t believe when I had my hand on my hip back in the day that my fingers would start to curve around my belly – now there are inches (maybe a foot?!?) between my fingers and the curve of my belly.  It’s all so crazy how fast and yet how slow this whole pregnancy is going!  One second I’m ready to meet our little miracle and the next I’m ready to do whatever it takes to keep her in there forever.  Either way, I constantly remind myself that half a year ago, I thought pregnancy was just something my life was not going to have etched into its story, and now here we are.  How a woman’s heart aches with gratefulness and sadness after she’s dealt with infertility and is now pregnant.  How much I would give to allow every couple the experience that I am so lucky to be experiencing.  How much it makes me cry to remember where I was just months ago.  Oh, how amazing our Lord is even if I will never understand His ways, His timing, or His plans.


How big is baby: She is currently about 14.5 inches long and weighs about 2 pound.  She’s about the size of an eggplant.  I have such a hard time using these fruits and veggies as comparisons – that must mean she is as big as an eggplant when she is in the fetal position?  Or she is the weight of an eggplant?  There is no way an eggplant is 14.5 inches long.

Weight gain/loss: I have gained about 20 pounds total since the start of this pregnancy.  It’s not exactly where I want to be considering I’m only supposed to gain 25-35 (and I was hoping to just gain the 25), but I was pretty small to begin with, there have been many crazy changes going on, and I’m not counting calories – I’m just doing the best I can!  It’s all for a good cause!

Sleep: Sleep.  Eh.  I wake up a lot for really no reason except to go to the bathroom or because I’m uncomfortable.  Lying on my side or at an angle has become much harder.  Celia kicks me a lot on the side resting on the bed, and there have been some stressors that definitely have been keeping me up.  Overall though, I’ve taken a couple naps which I usually never do, but I’m trying to go easier on myself because being pregnancy can be hard enough, but considering that, my random new schedule, working on the house, planning to buy a new house, living with my parents, etc. make everything more difficult, so I’m trying to allow myself some grace.

Stretch Marks: None on my belly yet that I can see, but San said I’m starting to get some faint ones along the bottom of my belly that I really can’t see.  Oh well!  It was bound to happen since I’m prone to them anyway.  I’m going to call them miracle marks, as cheesy as that is, because I need to remember these marks are all made because our little miracle baby is alive and well inside my belly.

Cravings: Pretty much nothing.

Aversions: Still chicken, but it’s not overwhelming.

Movement: This is by far my favorite part of pregnancy.  I have no shame in grabbing my belly to feel her kick any time she is active no matter where I am.  It’s the most amazing feeling I’ve ever experienced!  Lately, she has really been loving leaning against the outside of my uterus so when I push on my belly, it is HARD.  It’s definitely not the most comfortable, but I love being able to push at the top of my belly and the bottom and see that she is big enough to span that entire distance and more.  It’s pretty cool!  We’ve had a few instances of playing push back where I push and then she pushes me back a few times back and forth.  As excited as I am to meet her, I also am going to miss the mystery and the bonding without really knowing anything about her.

What I’m loving: I’m loving my Bradley classes!  I get nervous about birth throughout the week, despite my best efforts to not think about it or stay positive, but every time I go to class, I get more confident!  I honestly don’t think I would be able to go through with a natural birth without the classes because there is so much to learn, so many things to do to prepare (to position the baby, to prepare for squatting, for nutrition, etc.), and I don’t think I would have really thought about the relaxation component that I believe is the key to a natural birth.  I’m so grateful to have San as my coach and think our birth, no matter what happens, will be so empowering and such a bonding experience between the two of us because we will have learned how to work as a team through this, which I really think I need to go through with it.  I’m also loving all the baby clothes we recently bought.  We’ve been snatching up some clothes on clearance at a couple kids’ stores and Target.  We recently shopped at our new local kid’s clothing consignment shop and we bought probably 20 outfits for only $40!!!!  They are all so cute and so much cheaper than retail.  I can’t imagine paying full price for all her clothes when we can buy the same clothes for $1.50-$5 or cheaper if there is a special sale.

Symptoms: I think I’ve come to the point of the pregnancy when my bladder has a mind of its own.  I’ve been going a lot more often and Celia has definitely been making it harder to hold it when she is pushing on my bladder!  I’ve also seen an increase in my mood swings this week!  I’m not sure if it is a swing in hormones recently or it just came out more prominently due to circumstances, but San definitely did his share of calming me down.  The most notable time was the other day when I was looking forward for two days to eating leftovers of this delicious cheesy, hamburger pasta San made.  I should have let my dad know I was planning on finishing that later, so I really can’t blame a hungry man for eating a delicious, hearty leftover meal.  However, I though I had seen it in the fridge earlier that day, so when I went to eat it for lunch and it wasn’t there, let’s just say I may have cried, swore, and sat in bed for a while hovering between bursting out in laughter and crying hysterically.  It’s pretty funny, but it’s also very annoying to know I’m being ridiculous but feeling such strong emotions!  San ended up making me a new batch.  He’s a keeper!

What I’m excited about: I’m super excited about my baby shower this weekend.  The timing was not the best due to everything we have going on, the holidays coming up, plus me being in my friend’s wedding when I am 37 weeks pregnant, so a lot of people can’t come, but I know it will be a fun time and I’m very grateful to get to celebrate our little one with the people I care about!

What I’m nervous about: I’m not nervous about too much.  The house is really close to being able to be put on the market, so I’m just trying to stay positive that it will sell quickly and for the amount we want so we can get moving on to house hunting for our next home!

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26 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: She is currently about 14 inches long and weighs about 1 and 2/3 pounds (I bet she is about 2 pounds now since she was measuring a little ahead at our last appointment).  She’s about the size of a scallion.  In my mind, she is huge, but she has so much more growing to do, which I suppose means my belly does too, although I really cannot imagine how my belly is going to continue to get huger and huger as the next three months come and go.

Weight gain/loss: No idea, and I’m not sure I want to know!  We are taking the Bradley Method classes about how what we eat is much more important than how much weight we gain, and with all the chaos of moving, living with my parents, finishing our house, etc., I am doing the absolute best I can and that’s all I should be thinking about.  I can work it off later and hopefully breastfeeding will help, too.

Sleep: Sleep is okay – not much to report.

Stretch Marks: None on my belly, but now they are starting to crop up on my hips which is super fun (sarcasm).  It’s all worth it.  It’s all worth it!

Cravings: Pretty much nothing.  I do love hashbrowns, but I’m not sure if that is pregnancy-related or just something I’ve always loved.

Aversions: Still chicken.

Movement: She is a little mover in there!  It’s funny and sad how I feel her all the time and as soon as I feel a couple strong kicks in one spot, I’ll place San’s hand over the area and the kicking will stop.  I’m not sure if I just feel things more because I feel it internally as well, or if she really just likes to hide from her daddy.  He’s felt plenty of them, but he would love to feel more!

What I’m loving: I’m loving reading about natural childbirth in the Husband-Coached Childbirth book and in our Ina May Gaskin book on natural childbirth.  I read while I’m exercising on the treadmill and it makes me feel so empowered!

Symptoms: Round ligament pain.  OUCH!  I had some constant pain in that area a few days ago and it was so painful!  I couldn’t do anything to relieve it. Doing my exercises meant to relieve the pressure on my uterus only made it worse, but eventually it went away.  I also fell that same day down the stairs…SO scary, but thankfully it was only three stairs in my parents’ garage and I landed on my butt.  I have a black bruise now, but Celia and the rest or me are just fine.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited about my friend Megan’s bachelorette party this weekend!  I spent a lot of time planning it and it is a “pin up girl” theme, so I’m excited to hopefully feel a little sexy (or at least cute) since lately I’ve felt anything but remotely attractive.

What I’m nervous about: I’m not nervous about much – just happy that things on the house are gearing up to be finished in the next couple weeks (hopefully) so we can maybe start thinking about house hunting for a new house to bring our baby home to!

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25 Weeks | Baby Raisin


Let’s do a little comparison, shall we, of what a difference three months can make.



Um…can I just say that this comparison photo completely scares everything in me for what my body is going to morph into when this baby is due which is still over three months away!  I need to remind myself that from the beginning I said I was all about embracing the belly.  It also is not effective for me to google “25 week pregnancy belly” because I feel like a whale in comparison to some people!  I seriously cannot believe how small I used to be!  Not anymore!  Every part of me (except maybe my arms) has stretched in some way, and I haven’t even gained more weight than the recommended amount!  Do all women feel like this?!?  It’s just a huge shock to see how much has changed in 3 months.  She is healthy which is my main concern, of course.

I did read that at 25 weeks, a woman’s uterus is the size of a soccer ball.  I’d say it looks like I’m hiding a soccer ball under my shirt, so I’d say that is accurate!

How big is baby: She is currently about 13.5 inches, the size of a cauliflower or an acorn squash!    I had our latest and hopefully last ultrasound last week and she was measuring a few days ahead and already weighs 1 pound 11 ounces!  This girl just hit a pound a couple weeks ago and now she is almost two pounds!  I read that she is starting to chub up, and the ultrasound photos definitely proved that!  So cute!

Weight gain/loss: I have had no consistency when it comes to weight gain.  I’ve just been going off weighing myself at doctor appointments and a couple random days here and there.  Last I checked, I was up 17 pounds.

Sleep: It may be too early to say this, but it seems that gone are the days of solid sleep.  I’ve been consistently waking up in the wee hours of the morning without being able to fall back asleep for an hour or so.  I’m not sure if it is the constantly long to do list, the chaos of new jobs and a new living situation, or just the pregnancy itself, but it hasn’t been the most fun.  It doesn’t help that this belly is getting pretty uncomfortable, but I have been laying in the best position I can that I learned in my first Bradley Method class, so I’m doing my best!

Stretch Marks: Wow, has this pregnancy been an eye-opener for me!  I fully came to terms with stretch marks on my belly.  Never did I imagine that my first stretch marks would arrive north of my belly.  For a normally small-busted lady, I was feeling pretty happy with the pregnancy chest I had acquired, but it was only a few months of bliss and now I’m afraid they will never look like they once used to.  One of the many badges of motherhood, I suppose.

Cravings: Pretty much still apples and water.

Aversions: Still chicken.

Movement: She is still moving like crazy, and now her punches and kicks have become very strong!  She shocks me sometimes!  During the ultrasound on Friday, she kicked the probe and startled both the ultrasound tech and me!  It was pretty funny!  Her movements are definitely visible from the outside, but we can’t make out any body parts yet.  It just looks like little twitches and spasms.

What I’m loving: I’m loving that we are getting closer and closer to being able to sell our house.  It’s still a few weeks away most likely, but every day is a step in the right direction.  I’m also loving our Bradley Method class!  Due to the nature of San’s line of work, he often works nights and wasn’t able to come last week and won’t be able to come this week, but we are hoping he will be able to make more of them in the future.

Symptoms: One very strange thing happened this week – I threw up for the first time this whole pregnancy!  After months of nausea during my first trimester, I thought I was past the window where I might throw up.  I had worked so hard to not throw up during those months and then out of the blue last week, I threw up I think because I drank too much water and the ham in my omelet was grossing me out.  Probably TMI, but for me it’s worth documenting!

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to finally have new insurance information since the job change!  How lame is that?  I’m just happy all the paperwork has gone through and I finally have an ID number so I don’t have to worry about paying out of pocket for any appointments.  I am also super excited that I actually loved my experience at the new hospital and I have been cleared to deliver at the hospital with a midwife!  Let’s hope this pregnancy continues to be a healthy one so I can go ahead with this new choice of delivery!

What I’m nervous about: I’m a little nervous about the weight gain and all the stretching my body has been doing.  I’m super excited to be pregnant and I’m happy to lend my body to this little one, but it’s just such a big change that I’m having a little trouble getting used to!

The latest ultrasound photos:

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This one looks a little strange, but it’s a good photos of her face.  She’s already got very plump lips and Daddy’s nose!  So cute!


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24 Weeks | Baby Raisin


I apologize for the crappy photos! These were taken on an iPhone in my parents’ basement with one minute to spare before heading out the door.  Go figure I actually looked cute for once!

How big is baby: Almost a foot long and she gained 4 oz. in the last week, so now she is about one and a third pounds!!!  That boggles my mind!  I better step up the eating a little bit so I make sure she is getting enough.

Weight gain/loss: I finally was able to step on the scale the other day and I have gained about 14 pounds since the beginning of the pregnancy.  not bad!  I’m feeling very happy that I don’t have an intense urge to eat all the time.  I’m sure the holidays are going to be difficult this year, but I’m happy to have put on weight slowly and healthily throughout these first two trimesters.

Sleep: Overall, pretty good!  I have started using a long body pillow as a makeshift maternity pillow.  It is okay.  I love when Clem lays on top of it and I cuddle her all night.  She makes a great maternity pillow!  I’m not sure how much I actually stay on my side in the correct position, but I don’t wake up too often, so that’s a good sign that all is well with my body and Celia’s body while I am sleeping.

Stretch Marks: None yet, miraculously!  Considering how much I have stretched (my waist is at least double in size from where it was even two months ago), I amazed I haven’t had any stretch marks appear.  I only began lotioning daily this week (I’m not a big lotion girl – it always feels gross on my skin, but I’m learning to get used to it), and although I don’t believe that lotioning will keep stretch marks away, it’s a good habit to get into.  Plus, it’s bonding time with Celia and a little daily pampering for mama!

Cravings: Apples, but it’s not an intense craving, just something I seem to like often when normally I’m not a big apple fan.  I don’t think I have mentioned before that my only consistent craving during this pregnancy has been water, and I’m so thankful for that craving!  I read that I shouldn’t force myself to drink water, but should drink when I feel thirsty.  Well, I feel thirsty often and get at least my daily amount if not more just because I crave water throughout the day.  I’m so glad I don’t have to worry about getting enough most days!

Aversions: Still chicken.

Movement: She’s a-movin’ in there!  She seems to favor my right side for some reason.  Perhaps the placenta is more on my left side which is why I don’t feel very many kicks there.  I’ll have to see during my next ultrasound (boo – I’m not happy to have so many ultrasounds done, but I’ll explain why I’m having another one in the “nervous about” section).  I feel her movement all the way up to just under my bust, so judging by that and my size, I am convinced she has taken over my entire torso.

What I’m loving: I’m loving that I’ve been reunited with San and the pups!  So much on our to do list regarding the move and finishing the house is done, although there is still a lot to do on the house.  Thank God for my amazing parents and that this baby is not due for another four months.  I finally feel back in control of things and I have a whole week off between my old job and my new job to get things done, which is such a stress-reliever for this do-everything-and-get-it-done-yesterday girl!  I’m also loving that I can eat much better now that I’m not in moving mania where I was eating pretty badly for a while there.

Symptoms: After moving lots of boxes down to my parents’ house on my own (I promise they were light and I was being careful!), I’m having some pretty nasty tailbone pain.  I’ve been prone to tailbone pain before (my mom has always been on me about how I sit because I either need to be laying down or rocked back on my tailbone to be comfortable), so the pain now is even worse because it’s added on to to the normal regular tailbone pain I have.  I know it will go away now that I’ve been taking it easy and walking often, but it’s not fun in the meantime!

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to see Celia on the ultrasound screen again this week during my new hospital’s initial visit.  I’m also excited to get a hair cut!  It’s been almost a year – I’m so bad about that – so it’s about time!  We area also starting a Bradley Method class on Wednesday.  Unfortunately, San has to work during it, but I’m excited nonetheless!

What I’m nervous about: I wouldn’t say I’m nervous, per say, about my appointment this week at the new hospital, but I’m more irritated than anything.  I’ve already done all the blood work up, the initial pap smear, an introduction class, monthly, monitoring, ultrasounds (one to confirm the pregnancy, the 20-week anatomy ultrasound, and then a level 2 follow up anatomy ultrasound to make sure the cyst on her brain was gone and there were no other markers for Trisomy 18), and so on in our old city with my old doctor, but now I have to go to my new hospital from 8am to about 3pm doing three separate appointments!  I’m going to be sitting around most of that time, bored out of my mind. I have to meet with a nurse for an hour and a half, do ANOTHER anatomy ultrasound for an hour, and then meet with a doctor for an hour, all to discuss things I’ve already discussed and to have things checked I’ve already had checked (TWICE).  I suppose I “understand” that the new hospital wants to make sure they know everything there is to know and check everything there is to check, but I feel that as the consumer, which I am as the one paying the bill and paying the insurance company, I should get a say in what I have rechecked or not.  Unfortunately, even with my medical records, they won’t let me seek care there unless I jump through these hoops, so jump I will.  I’m not sure what they could see on the new ultrasound that wasn’t seen on the last detailed, level 2 ultrasound, but I’m just trying to stay positive that I get to see our little girl again and that it will just be further relief that she is okay.

I will be honest and say that these monotonous appointments will definitely determine if I am going to see care somewhere else or not.  There aren’t many options in our new city, but you better believe I will try to find a better solution if I don’t receive the kind of care I am desiring.  I wanted so badly to deliver Celia in a birth center in the Twin Cities.  If she weren’t due right in the middle of the worst part of the winter (which is supposed to be another doozy), I would still consider driving up there to deliver her, but I just can’t risk that when there could be a huge snow storm or icy roads.

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23 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: 11 inches long; the size of a papaya!  I don’t like how every website says the baby is a different size.  I’m just going to roll with this even though I read she was only 8.5 inches long last week.  Either way, she is getting so big!

Weight gain/loss: Still no clue!  San took the scale when he moved out to be closer to his new job and I wasn’t weighed last week during my appointment.  I have an appointment next Friday at my new hospital in our new city, so I probably won’t have a good gauge of weight gain until then.  I can still fit into my pre-pregnancy pants (although the button digs into me when I sit down), so that’s a good indicator to me that I haven’t put on much extra weight.

Sleep: Overall, good!  I sleep through the night most nights now.

Stretch Marks: None yet, thankfully!  I still am in shock and am just waiting for them to appear.  My waist has to have at least doubled in size in just a matter of a few weeks, so I’m very surprised I have no stretch marks yet!

Cravings: Still apples once in a while, but otherwise nothing.

Aversions: Still chicken.

Movement: This is my favorite thing about pregnancy right now!  Plenty of people have felt her kick now.  She is getting to be so strong!  I just love having a regular indicator that she is alive and well in there through her movements.

What I’m loving: I’m loving that the basement is coming along (albeit a few setbacks), that we get to meet with our new realtor next week, and that I found a house of our dreams in our price range, and although we probably won’t get it (since we would have to sell our house first and that could be a while until we are even ready to list it), it gives me hope that we can find something affordable that is seriously better than what I ever imagined we could afford after buying our little tiny cottage in our current city with its higher prices.

Symptoms: Nothing other than those listed.

What I’m excited about: There is just so much to be excited about!  Fall is in the air, holidays are on the horizon, and we are just getting closer each day to meeting our little Celia Rae, our miracle.  I just love her so much and I cannot wait to hold her and see San as a daddy!  I may melt!

What I’m nervous about: Not much anymore!  I got myself a new nannying job when I move down with San, so we are fine in that department, I’m feeling great, and we just have so much to look forward to!  I feel like the really scary stressful part of relocating is mostly over and now we just have to get through the basement finishing and buy a new house.  All huge things, but we can do this!

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