31 Weeks | Baby Raisin




And a look back from when I first started showing!  Wow, a lot has changed!



How big is baby: 18 inches, about 3 and a third pounds, the size of a coconut! I just can’t believe she is so close to how long she will be when she is born. She will be full-term in just 6 weeks! That blows my mind.

Weight gain/loss: I should just take the “loss” part out of this section. I don’t intend to (nor do I want to) lose any weight at this point. Celia is growing like a weed (about ½ a pound a week now until the end), so losing weight would probably not be a good thing. At my latest appointment yesterday, I had gained 25 pounds, which is perfectly normal and healthy for my size and my pre-pregnancy weight. I’m feeling really good about it. They recommend up to 35 pounds, and I have anywhere from 6-11ish weeks to go since I really want to respect my body and my baby in terms of when she is ready to be delivered, so I think I can make it that long only gaining 10 more pounds. However, if I gain more than that, I’m okay with that, too.

Sleep: Oh man, sleep is pretty laughable at this point. It has gotten pretty bad. If I am able to “sleep in,” until about 6-8am, I normally am up for two hours in the night unable to fall back asleep. Most days, when I work, I start at 6am and the drive is 35+ minutes (depending on weather), so I’m usually up by 4:20. Those nights, I often have a hard time falling asleep, so I’ll get about 5 hours of sleep. I guess I’m just getting ready for life with a newborn. I’m going to try hard to make myself nap, but life is so insanely busy right now that I don’t always have that option.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: As I mentioned last week, I’ve been having some very weird smell-cravings, which I brought up to the midwife I met with yesterday. It’s likely that it’s due to anemia, so I’m going to start taking some iron supplements and trying to add iron into my diet. It’s really, really bad some days. I’ve learned that really bland cereal (like Kix or Rice Chex) help to fulfill the craving temporarily. Very strange!

Aversions: Not really much of anything at this point. I’m not even sure if chicken is an aversion anymore since I’ve stayed away from it for so many months that I don’t really think about it anymore.

Movement: Still very strong! Yesterday, on the way to my appointment, I was pretty sure she had finally flipped (at least for the day) and was head down. I felt very strong kicks up by my ribs and one of her feet stayed nestled against the right side of my rib cage pretty much all day. Sure enough, during my appointment, her head was down and her feet were right where I thought they were. I also had a Braxton Hick contraction while the midwife was feeling my belly, so I now know that I was right about what I was experiencing!

What I’m loving: I’m just loving feeling little Celia move and imagining her. Life is pretty hard and stressful right now, so I’m doing everything I can to focus on the miracle growing inside of me to keep things in perspective.

Symptoms: Nothing new.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to celebrate San’s birthday this weekend! Money is very tight for us right now, but I’m just so happy to get to indulge a little and celebrate my best friend! He works so hard to provide for us (often working 12-15 hour days, running on just a few hours of sleep). It makes me so worried about him, but also so grateful to have a husband who provides for us and is so giving. I’m super lucky to have him as my husband and Celia is truly beyond blessed to have an amazing dad like San.

What I’m nervous about: I’m going to be honest here, life is very hard for me right now. Personally, a lot has happened that during any time of my life would affect me greatly, but being pregnant with all these huge changes on top of it becomes overwhelming quite often. We are waiting on our house to sell and need the money now for a lot of things (maternity leave, a new home, etc.) since we had a lot of random things come up that were extremely expensive after we moved (many car repairs, house setbacks, etc.). I’m working toward a goal of a way to provide more for our family without working more, which I will share more about eventually, but it’s taken up a ton of my time because I’m trying to get things in order for it before Celia arrives. I love my parents very much and am so grateful to be living with them, but that change has been difficult as well for all of us. It’s not easy living on my own for the greater part of the last seven years and now moving back in with two extra dogs of our own in addition to their dog, different schedules, stuff in storage, different routines, splitting expenses, etc. I feel so grateful for what all these changes will hopefully mean for us and for the goals we have, but it has been overwhelming quite often lately. There are just so many unknowns surrounding our house. I really don’t know what we will do if we don’t get a buyer soon, but I trust God that we will get through somehow. I think the hardest part is that I wanted to do everything “right” during this pregnancy, but all of these changes have led to me pretty much having to give up control in most areas of my life, so I’m just trying to stay sane and stay alive and do the best I can when I can. My diet has not been nearly what I would like it to be, my stress level is far from where I had hoped it would be, I wanted to be so prepared and now we are left with still so much to buy for our baby and being temporarily unable to do so. I have felt like a bad mom quite often, but I have to remind myself that I’m doing the best I can. It’s hard, but I know we will get through.

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