Archive for December, 2014

35 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: 19-22 inches, 5.5 pounds (my midwife guessed this was her size as well at our last appointment on Tuesday), the size of a canary melon!  In other words, huge!

Weight gain/loss: Not paying attention anymore.  I don’t want to cry!

Sleep: I’ve now started to get what a google search told me is “pregnancy carpal tunnel.”  I wake up and my hands are super tingly, numb, and hurt.  It now wakes me up often and I can’t fall back asleep.  I learned that the only way I can fix it in the moment is to sleep sitting up while sleeping.  Now the most comfortable, but it works!

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Nothing new.

Aversions: None!

Movement: Lots of large, visible movements of her rolling and trying to get comfortable.  I’ve been trying to get her movements on camera, but she seems to be camera shy.  Many times I’ll be doing my own thing and I’ll see my belly move in my peripheral!  It’s so cool how strong she is now.

What I’m loving: I did my first happy dance in a long time yesterday!  We received a 15% off Target baby registry completion discount and I did some research of other ways to save even more money (like a 10% discount for signing up for a baby text subscription and saving 5% with a Target debit card).  I spent a whole day creating a list of the last items we needed/wanted (it was a LONG list) and then made a s preadsheet of the prices, where I could buy it at (sometimes Target didn’t carry something so we had to look to Amazon or other online stores).  Then, I looked up what items could be purchased physically in a nearby Target store (because the registry completion discount can be used once in-store and once online, so I had to be detailed to get the best deal without missing anything) and what could only be purchased online.  I made a detailed printout so we knew exactly what items to get in which aisles to save time.  When we got there, we also asked for the registry scanner in case we saw extra things that weren’t on our list or we saw a different version of something we head on our list that we liked better.  Checking out was SO much fun!  With the in-store savings and online savings, we saved around $300 total when stacking other coupons and things we found.  We also had gift cards and cash from baby shower gifts, so the savings to us was even more!  It was exhilarating to save so much money!  I can see why extreme couponers get hooked!

Symptoms: Nohe thing new this week besides the really bad carpal tunnel at night.

What I’m excited about: I’m so excited to have our last prenatal appointments scheduled!  That means she is getting close.  In just two weeks, she can come and likely be completely healthy.  So crazy!  I’m also excited for our maternity and newborn photos that are going to be taken by my great friend, Anna, who also took our gender reveal photos.  They will be extra special because we plan on taking them in our house which still hasn’t sold yet.  It’s the one bright side of it still being on the market – we can take photos to remember this time since Celia will never actually live there.

What I’m nervous about: Not much anymore!  I’m just a little nervous she may come earlier than I expect her to and we will be caught off guard, but I’m pretty prepared for her to come anytime after 37 weeks.

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34 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: 19-22 inches, just under 5 pounds, the size of a pineapple!  Is it just me, or are these fruit finally the really big fruit?!  I can’t believe how quickly babies grow!  Months ago she was the size of a raisin!

Weight gain/loss: No idea – I don’t plan on checking unless I have to!  It’s very hard to be this pregnant over the holidays!

Sleep: Some nights I sleep 9-10 hours and some nights I can’t sleep at all and get five hours.  Sometimes I’ll take a three hour nap, which is something I never did pre-pregnancy!  I’m just trying to sleep when I can!

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Nothing new.

Aversions: Non!

Movement: I can tell that she is really squished in there now because her movements aren’t as big and I feel a lot more of her moving her whole body rather than kicks and punches.  She has started to kick me very hard in the ribs as well which hurts!  I swear she’s trying to push her way out of my uterus sometimes!

What I’m loving: I’m loving that she is almost here!  I keep thinking about how many days/weeks we have left until 37 when I’m full-term (I know 39 weeks is now considered full-term, but that’s only because people were scheduling c-sections for after 37 weeks, but if she came at 37 weeks, chances are good that she would be fully developed enough to go home!  It blows my mind that she could come very soon!

Symptoms: My hands have been falling asleep and getting tingly while I sleep which is very annoying and wakes me up.  I’ve gotten to the point where all the exercise, changing positions, and stretching in the world wouldn’t keep my lower half from feeling stiff and sore.  Other than just being uncomfortable and unable to do as much as I could before, I am feeling really good!  The nesting has definitely kicked in!

What I’m excited about: I’m so excited to buy our last baby supplies and to feel secure now in our situation and everything.  It’s taken a long time to get to this point, but I’m at a place of peace about not having our own place when the baby comes and not having everything all figured out.  That’s a lot of coping considering how much I like to be in control of things in my life!  I have channeled that into being meticulous about our hospital bag and have made spreadsheets and spent a lot of time trying to save a ton of money on the last big-ticket items we need/want for our baby girl.

What I’m nervous about: I’m mostly just nervous about not knowing when she will come.  I would say I’m more anxious now, and  not scared, about the birth and what it’s going to be like.

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33 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: 19 inches, four and a half pounds, the size of a honeydew melon!

Weight gain/loss: At the doctor, I was up about 28 pounds I believe (I’ve already forgotten) since the beginning of the pregnancy.  I had a lot of clothes on (and boots), so that may have skewed it a little, too.  Either way, the midwife I spoke to said it is still a healthy weight gain and she has no concerns.  My blood pressure is very healthy and everything is going well, so no reason to be concerned.

Sleep: Getting up to pee 1-2 times a night and often waking up for 1-2 hours without being able to fall asleep.  I’ve gotten used to this, so it’s really not a big deal to me anymore.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Nothing new.

Aversions: None!

Movement: She is a little mover!  She has favored my right side since the beginning, so now that she is much bigger and is head down (YAY!), I feel lots of kicks on the right side of my ribcage.  I keep trying to get her movements on video, but she seems to be camera shy.  I keep feeling movement all the way on the far side of my belly (close to where my belly used to end) which is just crazy to imagine how much of my belly she is taking up!

What I’m loving: I’m loving her movements and just interacting with her!  I’m also loving that she is head down, as she was at my past two appointments, so I’m hoping a vaginal unmedicated birth will remain something we are able to do!  No flipping please, baby!  Many random people (strangers) have excitedly come up to me asking when I am due when I am out and about, which is really cool.  Many ask about her gender, name, etc. and express true excitement for us.  It just makes me so happy that being pregnant is looked at (at least by those I have interacted with) as such a positive, exciting thing.  Thankfully, everyone has been very gracious and have not looked surprised when I say I am not due until early February!

Symptoms: Nothing new.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited for Christmas and to just focus on some happiness in our lives.

What I’m nervous about: I’m still nervous about a few things, but I’m working hard to channel positive thoughts.  I just want this baby to be healthy more than anything, so that is my main concern right now.

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32 Weeks | Baby Raisin


How big is baby: 19 inches, just under four pounds, the size of a head of lettuce! So big!

Weight gain/loss: I didn’t weigh myself this week.  I’ll be going to the doctor (or should I say midwife) every two weeks now, so I will be weighed next week.

Sleep: I did end up getting nine and a half straight hours of sleep (well minus waking up a few times and falling back asleep) one night this week, but that has definitely not been a trend!  I’ve been tired more often now and just have trouble falling asleep, staying asleep and falling back asleep when I wake up.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: Nothing new.

Aversions: I don’t think I have any now!  I ate chicken this past week and really enjoyed it!  I was afraid I would forever hate chicken, so this makes me really happy!

Movement: Super strong!  They are much more visible on the outside now and she makes very big movements that move from one side of my belly to another.  She seems more active than she used to be, but maybe it’s just so strong now that I notice it more.

What I’m loving: I’m loving having some time left in this pregnancy to figure things out.

Symptoms: Nothing new.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to go to my next appointment with San and tour the hospital where Celia will make her debut.  San hasn’t been to an appointment at the new place now that we have moved, so I’m happy he gets to see it and we get to ask questions about Celia’s birth-day!

What I’m nervous about: Not much has changed in this area.  I’m not going to turn these weekly bump posts into a sad reminder of this time because I don’t think I will really want to remember some of the details of this time in our life because it’s been so hard.  I guess I will just say that this has by far been the hardest year of my life with the infertility and now this opportunity of moving becoming something that feels more like a burden than a blessing.  I’m clinging to God as much as I can and doing my best to stay strong, but it is honestly a minute-to-minute struggle for me right now.  I’m not going to go into it, but basically a lot is riding on the sale of our house which just doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen in the time we really need it to.  I keep getting my hopes up only to be consistently let down, for months, and I’m starting to wonder if I should just expect setbacks, things to go wrong, things to break, broken friendships, etc. or if it is better to wish for the best only to fall hard every time things go wrong.  I’m not sure if I’m becoming a pessimist or a realist.  Overall, I am very blessed and deep down I am happy, but just this constant stream of bad news is really wearing on me, and it would be hard enough to handle it normally, but the pregnancy hormones, lack of sleep, and my new schedule where I’m waking up by 4:30 most days make it really hard.

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31 Weeks | Baby Raisin




And a look back from when I first started showing!  Wow, a lot has changed!



How big is baby: 18 inches, about 3 and a third pounds, the size of a coconut! I just can’t believe she is so close to how long she will be when she is born. She will be full-term in just 6 weeks! That blows my mind.

Weight gain/loss: I should just take the “loss” part out of this section. I don’t intend to (nor do I want to) lose any weight at this point. Celia is growing like a weed (about ½ a pound a week now until the end), so losing weight would probably not be a good thing. At my latest appointment yesterday, I had gained 25 pounds, which is perfectly normal and healthy for my size and my pre-pregnancy weight. I’m feeling really good about it. They recommend up to 35 pounds, and I have anywhere from 6-11ish weeks to go since I really want to respect my body and my baby in terms of when she is ready to be delivered, so I think I can make it that long only gaining 10 more pounds. However, if I gain more than that, I’m okay with that, too.

Sleep: Oh man, sleep is pretty laughable at this point. It has gotten pretty bad. If I am able to “sleep in,” until about 6-8am, I normally am up for two hours in the night unable to fall back asleep. Most days, when I work, I start at 6am and the drive is 35+ minutes (depending on weather), so I’m usually up by 4:20. Those nights, I often have a hard time falling asleep, so I’ll get about 5 hours of sleep. I guess I’m just getting ready for life with a newborn. I’m going to try hard to make myself nap, but life is so insanely busy right now that I don’t always have that option.

Stretch Marks: No new ones.

Cravings: As I mentioned last week, I’ve been having some very weird smell-cravings, which I brought up to the midwife I met with yesterday. It’s likely that it’s due to anemia, so I’m going to start taking some iron supplements and trying to add iron into my diet. It’s really, really bad some days. I’ve learned that really bland cereal (like Kix or Rice Chex) help to fulfill the craving temporarily. Very strange!

Aversions: Not really much of anything at this point. I’m not even sure if chicken is an aversion anymore since I’ve stayed away from it for so many months that I don’t really think about it anymore.

Movement: Still very strong! Yesterday, on the way to my appointment, I was pretty sure she had finally flipped (at least for the day) and was head down. I felt very strong kicks up by my ribs and one of her feet stayed nestled against the right side of my rib cage pretty much all day. Sure enough, during my appointment, her head was down and her feet were right where I thought they were. I also had a Braxton Hick contraction while the midwife was feeling my belly, so I now know that I was right about what I was experiencing!

What I’m loving: I’m just loving feeling little Celia move and imagining her. Life is pretty hard and stressful right now, so I’m doing everything I can to focus on the miracle growing inside of me to keep things in perspective.

Symptoms: Nothing new.

What I’m excited about: I’m excited to celebrate San’s birthday this weekend! Money is very tight for us right now, but I’m just so happy to get to indulge a little and celebrate my best friend! He works so hard to provide for us (often working 12-15 hour days, running on just a few hours of sleep). It makes me so worried about him, but also so grateful to have a husband who provides for us and is so giving. I’m super lucky to have him as my husband and Celia is truly beyond blessed to have an amazing dad like San.

What I’m nervous about: I’m going to be honest here, life is very hard for me right now. Personally, a lot has happened that during any time of my life would affect me greatly, but being pregnant with all these huge changes on top of it becomes overwhelming quite often. We are waiting on our house to sell and need the money now for a lot of things (maternity leave, a new home, etc.) since we had a lot of random things come up that were extremely expensive after we moved (many car repairs, house setbacks, etc.). I’m working toward a goal of a way to provide more for our family without working more, which I will share more about eventually, but it’s taken up a ton of my time because I’m trying to get things in order for it before Celia arrives. I love my parents very much and am so grateful to be living with them, but that change has been difficult as well for all of us. It’s not easy living on my own for the greater part of the last seven years and now moving back in with two extra dogs of our own in addition to their dog, different schedules, stuff in storage, different routines, splitting expenses, etc. I feel so grateful for what all these changes will hopefully mean for us and for the goals we have, but it has been overwhelming quite often lately. There are just so many unknowns surrounding our house. I really don’t know what we will do if we don’t get a buyer soon, but I trust God that we will get through somehow. I think the hardest part is that I wanted to do everything “right” during this pregnancy, but all of these changes have led to me pretty much having to give up control in most areas of my life, so I’m just trying to stay sane and stay alive and do the best I can when I can. My diet has not been nearly what I would like it to be, my stress level is far from where I had hoped it would be, I wanted to be so prepared and now we are left with still so much to buy for our baby and being temporarily unable to do so. I have felt like a bad mom quite often, but I have to remind myself that I’m doing the best I can. It’s hard, but I know we will get through.

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